Wow I never thougth I would be doing this but I keep forgetting things so I thought I would do this so I can remember :)
I have a great group of friends who are moms and seeing them act/talk with their kids makes me want to do that with Kai but I just don't feel attached or something- I'm scared I will lose him- I've lost everything important to me in the past so I'm scared about him which it totally stupid but totally honest. I'm hoping this changes and does so soon.
I never thought I would be a mom let alone a single mom. This is the hardest thing I've ever done. I love being his mom but I so could use someones shoulder once in a while.
I didn't think I was so negative about all this maybe I'm just really tired, because I'm really not negative about being a mom. I love it! Wouldn't change it for anything in the world. I love my lil man more than I've ever loved anything before.
Totally normal baby girl...but it sucks. As a single mom there were a lot of times I really needed someone to be there, and there wasn't anyone. Lean on your online friends for now, and your friends close to you. I also was afraid I would lose my sweet baby, and was scared...it passes. You are bonded to him sweetie, it's just a rough patch. Love you xoxoxo I can't post as me for some reason- so it's Teri under anonymous :)
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